Riding the Waves of Change

Roughly speaking, days 5-8 were somewhat slow from the perspective of my journal. We continued our journey through some amazing places: Pangboche, Ama Dablam basecamp and Dinboche. Often when you travel and tour you begin to get jaded by the beauty around you as the "newness" starts to wear off and you grow accustomed to your surroundings. I never got jaded though, every time I looked around me I saw something else to be inspired by whether it be a plant, tree, hill or new view of one of the mountains. There were other things though, that shifted as I grew more accustomed to the people  and the routine and as mundane as this felt it was in that new level of comfort and peace that my mind was able to grow stiller and deeper thoughts began to come through. In meditation you still your mind, 
"calming the waters" so-to-speak so that the truer, clearer thoughts can come through. When you aren't racking you brain about bills, schedules and arguments you can begin to think and feel how life is going for you, what's working and what isn't. In my work I would describe this scenario as a time when you have removed your mental and emotional bodies and can allow your Soul to shine through, sharing it's own opinions on your life. 

During these days we typically only hiked 3-4 hours as Brett was under the weather and we had plenty of time to take so there was no rush. This meant that by lunch we were at our next destination and we had the rest of our day at our leisure. Without external and electronic distractions this left plenty of time to be still, which is something I don't often do. At the time I got very bored and even frustrated, but hindsight I now know that this was when I began to shift my energy back into a place of clarity and soulfulness. I spend most days jumping back and forth between appointments, classes, emails, Facebook, my website and more. You often don't realize how badly this mashes up your mind until you are forced into a situation where for a long period you are entirely without all of these habits. Again going back to the theme of "receiving," it was in this time that I was allowing myself to receive 100% of my own undivided attention. I had nothing better to do than to sit and become acutely aware of my own thoughts, emotions, actions and reactions. 

It is in this place (meditation, travel, etc.) of peace and quiet that I ask questions. Because my mind has grown still, the answers that eventually come back are much clearer. I am able to observe, find answers and gain inspirations to help me adjust my current situation into a more productive and beneficial place.

I became aware of the rut that I was in at home. I don't mean this as if I was in a bad place- I have a wonderful job and wonderful relationships that I am extremely grateful for- but we all get into ruts, they are our daily routines that help our day to go relatively smoothly. Uneventfulness is often appreciated in an insane world. The problem arises when our daily routines slowly and softly get us in a stagnant hole, we don't realize that this stagnancy is affecting us until we have the opportunity to remove ourselves from it all together. In general, if you do the same thing over and over again then by law nothing is changing, so in many ways a routine is very unproductive. I love what I do for work, but I realized that my present routine left very little room for personal expansion. 

I made the choice four years ago to make a career by doing what I love... yet I was still taking the safe route which often meant doing what I love but not what I really REALLY love. I know what truly burns my passion for life yet I have been afraid to pursue it because I could possibly fail at it [insert energetic slap in the face here]. It was here, in the highest land of the world, that I connected dots, asked the questions, drew conclusions and poured my undying support into them. I gained the courage to shift my mind away from doubt and into a cheerleader. I was already proving to myself how much I was capable of, why stop with trekking? The question always is, "If you could do anything, what would it be?", well I rewrote it to, "you can do anything, so what will it be?"

I sat down today not knowing what I would write. All that is in my journal for these few days is a review of where we trekked, what I ate, blah blah blah. Once I began thinking about it though, it occurred to me that I wrote nothing because there was some really powerful shit going on way deeper than my pen had yet to uncover. They say that revolutions start as the whispers of the people, well my people were whispering and it has created a revolution within me that is ready to do whatever it takes to make the dreams of my Soul a reality.